The Wisdom of a Stuffed Bear

One of my favorite storybooks as a child was "Winnie the Pooh". I loved reading of Christopher Robin's dear friends in the 100 Acre Woods. Why? Because they were so genuine. Nothing touched my heart more than the true bond they all shared. They were not just friends; they were a close-knit family and they truly loved one another. I have been told that if you have one good friend in a lifetime, you're lucky; if you have a handful of good friends, you are truly blessed. I have some of the best friends in the world.

Some are here in Dallas. For example, my friends Taylor, Hannah, and all my friends from Berkner High. Taylor is definatly one of my best friends. I love her to death! We love spending time together and, of course, eating at Cassie's FroYo in Grapevine, Texas. I can't imagine life without my friends here in Texas. They have been there for years and help me so much.

The rest of my best friends are at Crown. Right now, we're spread out around the country (some out of country) and I miss them more than I ever imagined possible. My friends there are my family. When you're so far away from family, you bond with your friends more than normal. None of us live close to the college, so we are all far away from our families. I believe that God brought us together to help each other grow. I miss them so much. I love you, Sydney, Thomas, Justin, Manuel, Brittany, Rachael, Chelsea, Jessica, TJ, Juston, Kyle, Kaylee, Melody... actually if I listed them all, Blogger wouldn't let this post. It would be far too long.I am so grateful fo the friends that the Lord has given me, especially during my first year of college.

Christopher Robin once told Winnie the Pooh, "If ever there is tomorrow when we're not together, there is something you must remember. You are braver than you believe, stronger than you seem, and smarter than you think. But the most important thing is, even if we're apart... I'll always be with you."

Dream a Little Dream...

Having insomnia causes me to have extremly insane dreams, and many times, I wake after landing in strange places. Since childhood, my dreams have always been a mixture of Lewis Carrol's "Alice In Wonderland" and "The Wizard of Oz". I don't remember a time that I had a normal dream or even an understandable dream. I believe that dreams are a huge part of my life since they have such a way of changing the way I think. I would love to share a few of my dreams with you, but I don't even understand how to start descriing them. Usually, they involve falling asleep, waking up in a distant land, and starting my day. Many times, I have had dreams that felt as if they went on for days, weeks, and once, even months. It is so tiring that I get more rest while awake than asleep at times. When you wake up after what seems like a long period of time, life seems weird. For example, I woke up one night deep in the jungle in a small hut where I was working on opening an orphanage. The next night, I woke up in a land very similar to "Wonderland" where a large creature followed me around and, thought I thought he was trying to kill me, it was trying to get me to take a thorn out of his paw. He then became my best friend/pet and I named him Pongo. :) Yes, dreams are weird, but I'm glad that I have them. My strange dreams are a huge part of my life, and I am so priveledged to be able to remember the majority of them!

"I Can Go In" by Abigail Miller

I heard an amazing song this week and wanted to share it with you. I am in awe of how good our God is for He alone can bring a poor lowly sinner into the presence of holiness. A clip of Abigail Miller (the composer) singing it can be found at http://youtu.be/00Qle_9vza8 if you would like to hear it. The lyrics are based on a sermon by Spurgeon, and the words are still true to this very day and always will be. They are as followed:

♪He stood beside the gate of Heaven, waiting to go in,

And he wondered how this Holy Place could take a man like him.

With shouts of great rejoicing and with music then they came,

Of the angels standing by him he asked what could be their name?

"These are the company of prophets. The goodly fellowship of souls,

Who spake God's Word with faith and boldness;

Who blessed the poor, and made the wounded whole."

"Oh," he fell upon his knees, and cried,

"I am not one of these."

He waited 'til another band of shining ones drew nigh.

They entered into Heaven with a "Hallelujah" cry.

He asked again, "Who are these?

Can you tell me whence they came?"

He seemed to see the answer in a burning tongue of flame.

"These are the company of martyrs,

The mighty fellowship of Saints

Who knew our Lord and walked beside Him,

Who ran the holy race and did not faint."

"Oh," he fell upon his needs, and cried,

"I am not one of these."

Then suddenly a multitude was heard from far away.

Their voices rang with songs of joy like children at their play.

He saw Rahab, he saw David,

Mary Magdalene and Paul,

And the theif who died by Jesus

Was the one who led them all.

"Whoare these?!" he almost shouted at the angels.
"These are the sinners saved by grace!

The host of them who called upon the Savior:

Washed in Blood and justified by faith!"

And, Oh! He leaped up from his knees!

"Oh, I can go in with these!!!

And I can go in, for my heart is free from sin.

I've been washed in the Blood, everlasting life to win.

I can rejoice, I can lift up my voice.
I can sing, and I can go in!"

Oh, he thought that there could be no 'hallelujahs' and no cries,

For this lowly band of people by the world despised,

But as the scenes of Heaven opened up before his eyes,

He saw the martyrs and the prophets, and the host of Heaven rise,

And they sang, "I can go in for my heart is free from sin.

I've been washed int he Blood, everlasting life to win.

I can rejoice, I can lift up my voice.

I can sing, and I can go in!

I can rejoice, I can lift up my voice.
I can sing, and I can go in!

I can go in!!!"

"Not all those who wander are lost."-J.R.R. Tolkien

I had a great week travelling with Mum. We had schedualed a trip to visit family in Louisiana; it was supposed tobe a short, uneventful roadtrip for just the two of us. It turned out to be a crazy week full of family reunions, revival meetings, broken down cars, etc.

Saturday, we recieved a call that my Mum's cousin, Larry, had lost a hard battle to cancer. This made us leave Sunday after morning church service instead of Monday as planned. Three hours into our trip, my car started making a weird noise. I saw that the oil light was on, so we pulled over.... and the engine died. :( No fun! BUT, God is good! He let us get to a nearby resturant where we could eat and wait while looking at a beautiful lake. A few laters, my father and brother came to our rescue. We switched cars with them and continued traveling. (My car is currently at a great mechanic's shop here in Dallas, by the way.)

On Monday, we went to Larry's funeral and then visted my great-great-aunt Mammie. She is 91 years young and is in a nursing home in Franklinton, Lousiana. (The locals pronounce it "Frankilton" and think it's weird if you actually say "Frank-lin-ton" like I do.) I had never met her or anyone on that side of my family, so it was interesting. My great-grandfather, Willie Duncan, was killed in a gravel pit accident when my grandfather was only three years old, so I, obviously, never knew him. His brother, Alan, married Mammie. She has 13 grandchildren, 23 great-grandchildren, and eight great-great-grandchildren. This woman has lived a full life! She asked how old I was and when I told her that I'm 19, she sweetly said, "I'm 91. We're the same age, but backwards!" I enjoyed meeting Mammie Duncan!

Later on Monday, Mum and I attended a revival meeting at my dad's sister's church. (Her name is Lawren, but we affectionatly call her "NaNa".) It is a small full-Gospel church, and it was interesting to see the differences and similarities in our churches. We have the same basic beliefs, but there are several major differences. I enjoyed visiting there for that night. The music director asked if I could sing, so I was more than happy to use my voice and hands for God's glory. I sang and played "I Have Been Blessed", and it made me really think of how much the Lord has blessed my life.

Throughout the rest of the week, Mum and I attended a camp meeting at Fundamental Baptist Church in Livingston, Louisiana. It was great to catch up with old friends and hear some truly amazing messages. I hope you'll pray for this church and their ministries there. (For more information, go to fundamentalbc.com )

We returned last night, and all day today, I was out with Daddy getting my car from Waskom, Texas back to Dallas. It's been a long week, but I've enjoyed every moment!

Day by Day by Lina Sandell

"Day by day, and with each passing moment,

Strength I find to meet my trials here;

Trusting in my Father's wise bestowment,

I've no cause for worry or for fear.

He, whose heart is kind beyond all measure,

Gives unto each day what He deems best,

Lovingly its part of pain and pleasure,

Mingling toil with peace and rest.

Every day the Lord Himself is near me,

With a special mercy for each hour;

All my cares He fain would bear and cheer me,

He whose name is Counsellor and Pow'r.

The protection of His child and treausre

Is a charge that on Himself He laid;

"As thy days, thy strength shall be in measure,"

This the pledge to me He made.

Help me then, in every tribulation,

So to trust Thy promises, O Lord,

That I lose not faith's sweet consolation,

Offered me within Thy holy Word.

Help me, Lord, when toil and trouble meeting,

E'er to take, as from a father's hand,

One by one, the days, the moments fleeting,

Till with Christ the Lord I stand."

This song means so much to me! I had never heard it until I went to Crown this year, but I fell in love with it the first time I heard it, and it is constantly in my head. I hope it is a slight encouragement to anyone who happens to read this.

Old Favorites

This video never ceases to make me smile, even when I'm an insomniac and it's after one in the morning and I need to be up bright and early for church ^_^ What is your favorite old movie? Because anything involving the lovely Miss Shirley Temple, especially "Little Miss Broadway", is mine! I adore this scene!

Hello, Bloggers :)

I'm sorry for the lack of posts lately. I've been busy and I have had very little to write about! The past few weeks, though, have had various exciting events.

First, I met up with a new friend! Every Friday night while I was at Crown, I went with some of my friends to a Bible study for Chinese students that attend the University of Tennessee. ON the last week we were there, I met a very sweet Chinese girl who happens to attend a college within five minutes from my house here in Dallas! (The world says 'coincidence', I say 'divine appointment'.) We switched information and decided to get together throughout the summer to have dinner and what-not. This past Sunday, we met up and she visited my home church with me! I was so very excited to have her with me. I gave her a Mandarin New Testament, and I pray that she will soon come to know Jesus as her Lord and Saviour.

Second, I am teaching a Sunday School class for the young kids at my church this summer. In addition to this, I have started a Wednesday night summer program for the kids called "The Rejoicers". The Rejoicers are going to be learning about the Lord by learning about the people whom He created. I asked which countries and people they want to learn about and they requested China, Peru, Australia, Mexico, Canada, Scotland, and Uganda. I am very excited to be able to teach them about the great Christian warriors from these countries who fought earnestly for the faith as well as missionaries that our church supports in these countries right now.

Third, my parents and I went shopping at a few estate sales today and found some amazing international percussion and woodwind instruments. I'm very excited about sharing these with The Rejoicers as well as my own children some day. I am praying right now about starting a children's home one day, and I pray that the Lord will lead me in the way that He wants me to go. Please pray for me with this.

Well, Bloggers, I am back home in Dallas, Texas with my wonderful family. I am praying that this will be a great summer and that I get a job soon. I am truly missing my "family" from Crown. Right now, they're scattered throughout the country and around the globe, and I miss them desperately. I can't wait to see them all in August, and I hope that you will pray for them!

I Have Been Blessed

I've been told that if you can count your good friends on at least one hand, you have been extremly blessed. I am happy to say I have more than that. I have been so blessed with so many godly friends, and I am so thankful for them. Also, God has given me a wonderful family, two wonderful church families, freedom, health, etc. This son has meant so much to me lately, and I wanted to share it with you.

♪♫Lately, I've been looking back

Along this winding road

To the old familiar markers

And the mercies I have known.

I know it may sound simple,

But it's more than a cliche

There's no better way to tell you than to say,

"God's been good in my life!

I've been blessed beyond my wildest dreams

When I go to sleep each night,

And though I've had my share of hard times,

I wouldn't change them if I could,

Cause through it all,

God's been good!"

Times replay and I can see

I've had some bitter tears,

But I've felt His arms around me

While I faced my greatest fears.

I've had more gains than losses,

And I've known more joy than hurt

As His grace rolled down upon me undeserved.

God's been good in my life.

I've been blessed beyond my wildest dreams

When I go to sleep each night,

And though I've had my share of hard times,
I wouldn't change them if I could,

Cause through it all,

God's been good!

God has been my Father, my Saviour, and my Friend;

His love was my begining and His grace will be my end.

I could spend forever trying to tell you everything He is,

But the best way just to tell you is this:

"God's been good in my life.

I've been blessed beyond my wildest dreams

When I go to sleep each night,

And though I've had my share of hard times,

I wouldn't change them if I could,

Cause through it all,

God's been good!"

Then Came the Morning

♪♫They all walked away,

Nothing to say;

They just lost their dearest friend.

All that He said-

Now He was dead.

So this was the way it would end.

The dreams they had dreamed were not what they seemed,

Now He was dead and gone.

The garden, the jail, the hammer, the nail-

How could a night be so long?

The angel, the star,

The kings from afar,

The wedding, the water, the wine.

And now, it was done; they'd taken her Son

Wasted before His time.

She knew it was true; she watched Him die, too.

She heard them call Him 'just a man'.

Oh, but deep in her heart,

She knew from the start

Somehow, her Son would live again!

Then came the morning;

Night turned into day!

The stone was rolled away.

Hope rose with the dawn.

Then came the morning!

Shadows vanished before the sun.

Death had lost, and life had won,

For morning had come.

Morning has broken

Like the first morning.

The stone was rolled away.

Hope rose with the dawn.

Then came the morning!

Shadows vanished before the sun.

Death had lost, and life had won,

For morning had come!♪♫

Praise the Lord God Yahweh that the morning came after the long dreary night. This week, we look back of the death and burial of the Lord Jesus Christ. He willingly laid Himself down as a sacrifice for our sin. Only His blood can wash away sin and give eternal life. If you are reading this and can't say for sure that you know you would go to heaven if you were to die today, please, PLEASE e-mail me. I would love to pray for you personally and show you how you may know for sure that the Lord lives in your heart and that heaven is your eternal home. He is my best Friend, my Rock, my Strong Place, and my reason for singing. I hope that you know Him, also. Happy Easter, friends.

In His Love,

Caitlyn Mae

Oh What a Saviour!!!

♪♫Once I was straying in sin's dark valley;

No hope within could I see.

But the Lord Jesus, my precious Saviour,

Came to save poor lost souls like me.

Oh, what a Saviour; oh, hallelujiah!

His heart was broken on Calvary.

His hands were nail-scarred;

His side was riven.

He gave His life's blood

For even me.

Death's chilly waters I'll soon be crossing,

But I'll not fear, for His hand will lead me safe o'er.

But then, I'll join that chorus

In that great city,

And I'll sing up there forever and ever more!

Oh what a Saviour; oh, hallelujiah!

His heart was broken on Calvary.

His hands were nail-scarred;

His side was riven.

He gave His life's blood for even me.

Oh, what a Saviour!♪♫

Rest in Peace, Dory (4/17/2010-4/17/2011)

Here's some photos of my poor little baby!

You'll be missed, darling! lol I'm so happy that I'm safe and sound and that the Lord prevented any harm.